JILLY M. Hongkonger. Gemini. Rat. Born on 23rd May, 1984. Optimistic towards life. Cheerful. Happy. Compassionate. Sociable. Loves writing. My Fictionpress account. Loves Politics. Dreams to be a journalist. Believes in God.
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Music Playing Dido - Life for Rent
^^Lyrics I haven't really ever found a place that I call home I never stick around quite long enough to make it I apologize that once again I'm not in love But it's not as if I mind That your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy Well I deserve nothing more than I get Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought That I would love to live by the sea To travel the world alone And live my life more simply I have no idea what's happened to that dream Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy Well I deserve nothing more than I get Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent...
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This is my blogchalk: Hong Kong, Hong Kong, Chinese, English, Jilly, Female, 16-20, Reading newspapers, Writing.
Well, I haven't blogged for a while. Yes, a vacation for my mind, my soul and my spirit. I went to Australia for a week. It was great. I felt some aussie culture, like food, drink, lifestyle, languages, music, accents history...etc. Perhaps, I am going to write more about Cairns, Goldcoast and Sydney - places I went to, and put it as part of my portfolio.
I was wondering why people are not responding to my cover letters. I have sent a lot of emails applying for jobs, I mean summer jobs, but none of them replied. I guess this is a sign of total failure? Or it implies I have no ability and qualification for the job? It's disappointing. I realize how I am going through this period of sadness.
2nd of June is the graduation dinner. People will be discussing about their near or far future. What am I going to tell them? Oh well, I have tried looking for jobs, but yes, I couldn't find one finally? Or simply I did nothing?
Maybe the reality is the reality. It is always difficult to find the very first job. I was hoping to find an internship. But oh lord, no replies. Even McDonalds didn't reply either. What's happened? I am going crazy if this life goes on in this way. I hate life like this - if you know what I mean.
I prefer taking my life easier. Living in countryside is my choice. I can write children's book or write only for my portfolio while breathing in fresh air and looking at excellent seaview as well as greeneries.
I don't know what I should do this coming week. Am I lack of competence for the simplest job in this society? If so, how am I going to persuade myself that I am NOT the least competent person here? I wanna cry out loud. But I know this is NOT yet the end of the game yet.
Somehow I am envious of some people who finally got the job but without the stage of searching for jobs. I am confident of myself and my ability, why aren't there people recognizing it?
Perhaps I should go on writing my very first book. This is the way to prove my language ability, my thoughts, my unconcious feelings to the world objects - just to let the world to know I am still existing, and please hire me!
I have plans for the book. I have found some publishers. But I have to invest it for about HK$20,000. Right now I should start planning for the book. I am not going to start by writing a story - that's pretty difficult to think of an exciting plot. Well, a personal collection is an option. I will start writing pieces of personal thoughts. Yup, a really personal collection. If the Ming Man Publishing Ltd isn't going to publish it, okay, I will make it an online e-book, or I will join some self-publishing companies overseas and make further plans.
I should call Jackie to confirm whether we should go on searching for jobs. Or I have options here:
1. Go to Eleanor's place for work (full-time)
2. Go to Melly's place and teach English together (part-time)
3. Volunteer jobs
4. Consult other mature friends
Also, I am going to design a site, a professional one, and a more organized one, so that this blog can become part of my porfolio, keeping my daily thoughts and daily writings. I gotta go for revising French now. Later.
Posted at 12:38 pm by freud
Codepainter May 31, 2004 02:36 AM PDT I'm glad to hear that you are back! I'm also excited to hear that you are starting on your first book. I have a pretty cool idea for a collection of books myself that I am hoping to work on this summer. How did you go about finding a publisher? I am new to the entire process, could you give me some pointers?
